Thursday, May 26

and so the flag has fallen. current status: jobless. i already miss all the ongoings in the office: pat's jokes, saufi's naughty tricks, mark's- 'You're lying!' or 'She loves me', patrick's good-natured nagging and MoSt of all, my buddy. *sigh*


after work, buddy & i walked from Int'l Plaza to Glutton square for dinner. So happened to encounter DXO's official opening night! Treated to an amazing array of fireworks display which made the place seem so awfully romantic. darn. if only i was there with my bf. haha..if only i HAd one to begin with! DXO's a pretty good chill-out zone, went there with buddy and elisa on 2 seperate counts, but that's another story.


All in all, just wanna express my heartfelt joy in befriending such a wonderful person like buddy babe. *smiles* 3 weeks of friendship and such good brotherly terms. IF only my matchmaking skills were better.


well..nonetheless, God is good!

Tuesday, May 17

ok..this is pretty true..scarily true!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

hmm...i just feel like flirting and playing? oh my gosh. seriously?? well, but it is true..i don't really need to have a new relationship..although i won't mind one. *winks*



Sunday, May 15

just spent a day out after work with elisa & huiling ystday. dined at suki (again!) with the 2 babes and my colleague junjie, coz he had free time before meeting his frens. *smiles* all of us are growing up..transition from ducklings into swans. so how come i'm still stuck in the duckling phase?! 1st time seeing them in slinky dresses, nice skirts, heels(!), totes and make-up. hahhaa...feel so out of place in my jeans. :P


we chilled at pacific coffee along citylink after photos at the esplanade. man..i absolutely adore their couches! spent a good part of the night fixing a farewell gift for ms ng, relishing liquer chocolates & sipping champagne. and after that? tucking into a comfy bed. sweet! hahaha..


life's good. hopefully it gets better. *smiles*

Friday, May 13

1 day before mothers' day, an old schoolmate/cca mate of mine committed suicide. apparently, over a spoilt relationship with her bf. but to do something so drastic Just before mothers' day? how cruel. but the act itself is already tormenting enough for your family & frens. she..was a vivacious girl, always seemingly bitchy.(i didn't say i like her!) bimbotic but with a whole head of brains.


what is love? familiar enough topic with almost everyone out there. had a kid's definition:
'Love is like plain water. You may like drinking soft drinks and sweet stuff, but when you are thirsty, you drink water.'


true enough. other things in life such as fame, fortune, status may seem so attractive. but we also need emotional manna--love. not going to debunk this innocent thought. Is it possible to live life without love? God-fearing love, family love, friendship love, neighbourly love, couple love. When she jumped, she had to walk at least 5 minutes away from her terrace houses to the block of HDB flats. A non-impulsive action. What was going through her mind? No one will ever get to know..


xiao bai took the same train with me on my way home. discussed the topic about relationships. realised that both have the same morale: for a relationship to work, it has to be at the right time, with the right person. he also said that when you're truly in love, you're willing to do anything for that person.


*frowns* never got that stage. personal problem with commitment. well...at the end of the day, i'm just so incredibly grateful and glad for having my family and friends. They already complete my life. Though they won't be there with me every step of the way, I'm going to take a step at a time.


Counting Life's Little Blessings..

Tuesday, May 10

had lunch with my colleague - junjie today. maan. that has to got to be 1 of the more stressful conversations i've had in a loonnng time! he's a bloody good student, president of his club, can cook, sew, handle woodwork, repair computers...he's like a dream guy for mother & father- in-laws.. i'm serious!


he is what i'ld label as an old soul. definitely. reads encyclopedias but not novels. instead of gaming, he does research on computers. headful of general knowledge & not crap. sounds nerdy? well..he goes clubbing. *shrugs* interesting combi, but he's one hell of a smart guy. aaaannddd...at 19, he was getting ready to get married. *gasps* yeah..oh my gosh. at 19, i'm still thinking bout..studies & fun.


well, truth be told. after he told me bout himself, i immediately thought of...hq! hahaha..her perfect guy. greatest similarity to ya yue gong ming! it's just too bad that he's got a crush already. kinda expected..how can he even Not be attached! i guess..i shall have to work harder still, find another guy for hq. (:

Friday, May 6

1st day of work. well, not really. more of job training. *shrugs* but who am i to argue? my payroll has started cracking up and all's well with the world. leo's getting a lil on my nerves, coz he's smearing his uncountable thoughts onto everyone. getting more difficult to shrug him off... but damn, if it truly isn't his day today. he sure stinked up the office with his dog-poo laden shoes. *peeeuuuw!* the downsides of enclosed, air-conditioning has never presented itself more clearly than this incident.


saufi, junjie & i caught 'Kingdom of Heaven' today after 'work'. Terrific show aside from the butt-aching, fatigue-eyed squinting...yeah. it's awe-inspiring. & frightening to see how readily humans were & are, to indulge and immerse themselves in bloodshed in a supposed war of religion. but in truth, it is all about the fight for wealth, land and glory. even till now, we do not repent. are we doomed to carry on the mistakes of our past ancestors? we speak of truth, love, harmony. but not every heart sings to that melodious tune.


The line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being.
-Aleksander Solzhenitsyn


On a note aside, what have u gotten for your Mom's for mothers' day? my sis, bro & i had a durian cake (she loves durian) and a bouquet of sunflowers delivered to her office. truly hope she enjoyes it.. and know that all these cannot even represent 1% of the love we have for the most amazing lady I have ever known.

Happy Mothers' Day ( :

And Now, Presenting the newly employed *drumrolls* --Janice--!

yup, u betcha. I'm employed. with 2 jobs. ( :

1) Part-time job at Caesars (suntect) : if u wanna buy any firearms, swords, LOTR memorabilia, STAR WARS LIGHTSABRE... ONLY buy it when I'm AROUND! if not sure, call and ask me! coz...i needa earn the commission. worked 1 day so far. thomas is a pretty nice chap. poor thing, got bombarded by my many questions bout his life. hahhahaa.. nelson's nice too. funny, smart & all. heard tt 1 guy's damn moronic. will have to chance to experience on sunday. *sheesh*


2) Full-time job at Hospitality Direct, as a telemarketer. In all, there're 4 of us. Leo, the 30+ man who's working for the fun of it (he's loaded), Ice, the soon-to-be-bald-coz-of-NS guy who plans to be a lecturer and Saufi, the 18 year old lad who's gonna study retail come July. the pay's ok..but it's gonna be tough.


Babes, Hunks: PLEASE HELP! if u know anyone who is interested to get a membership card for getting free hotel stays in m'sia, up to 60% d/c in 8000 hotels all over the world, dining vouchers... let me at 'em! well...or u can just give me their no.

I promise not to bite. *smiles sweetly*


meanwhile, gotta get some proper working shoes. wore 3 diff pairs (mom's & sis's) on 3 diff interviews..and developed 7 sores in al. heels. the ultimate leg killing gadget. k, enough said.

Sunday, May 1

ARGHHHHHHHHHH! *scream in frustration & maniac tugging at my rebonded roots* These past few days have been so unfulfilling, so dissatisfying. Am experiencing 1st-hand utter boredom as an unemployed personnel. Can truly, safely declare my status as a parasite to my overworked parents. In addition, I motion that the paradox of staying at home will fatten an already fattened individual into giganticious proportions to be a Fact.


Recently, in my periodic job hunting spats, I came across job offers that entails one to encompass an excellent grasp of both spoken and written English. I fulfill that pre-requisite! Or so, I thought. Unconsciously, a dominant, deep-seeded gloom had threatened to overbubble and easily erased my confident thoughts. In short - My English Sucks. This and many other puny, annoying instances had a spillover effect splashed upon my innocent family members. My deepest apologies. Been experiencing cyclical temperaments that I can only attribute to a petty personality and desolation. and No, it's not the time of the month.


Had so many thoughtful moments these past few days and without a suitable written outlet to lash it upon, I suddenly chanced upon a self-discovery. I can never be a faery-like, intriguing changeling with fantastic anecdotes or spin wonderful encounters. Try as I might, I can never fabricate tentalisingly delightful blogs that are easy on the mind and spirit like my friends, much less mould works of art to rival the likes of Jack DuBrul or Ken Palmer. My blogs are darker revelations/greviances to my blessed, fortunate yet malais soul.


I'm just a plain, simple-minded, ordinary creature with no knowledge in the overwhelming, fast-paced world, no capabilities to boast of, no achievements to shout of. Having said that, I can never encounter exciting adventures, solve deceptive murder cases or make it big in the ivy league. In fact, I suspect that as a pathetic minion, my life would be such that the least would even hesitate to cast their eyes over. Hardly a blimp to be seen or felt.


But I sure damn well can try. Where these words came from, I have utterly no idea. But as sure as the short-lived Isabella (le papillon) blazes across fields in all its splendour and fight for its survival of species,
So can I