Just played squash with Jack & Weida on friday, which wasn't very challenging. Not that I can blame it on anyone, coz they're real beginners, whereas I've played for a longer period of time. Am considering asking Luke, but he has exams. *Sigh* nvm, maybe when they get better, I can have a better game and improve my strokes.

Hey, btw! Do visit http://kevan.org/johari?view=jan-ice and put down what you think of me.

Thanks in advance ( :

Well, sales today wasn't fab. earned very little extra pocket money, and i'm spending so much so fast! Have to work harder for tmr's sales already. Am really tired, with work everyday, I kinda take to de-stressing, lounging in my room surrounded by bossa nova, snazzy jazzy music and what-not. And guess what, I end up sleeping late, coz i'm just so comfortable! ahaha..how weird. Anyway, this constitutes to eyebags but I guess I need my daily dose of good music now.. it's addictive!

Ah. Lovely weekend. I had a day off from work, and I tried to squeeze every minute out of it to maximise it. Had three things on my agenda - 1) Donate blood 2) Have coffee with babe 3) Play tennis with jeremy from 8-10am.

Failed. Miserably! 1) Iron deficiency (again!) 2) Pacific coffee closed. :/ Watched movie w babe, and didn't have time for coffee at TCC. 3) Tennis courts were already booked.

Yeesh. Well, at least I had a great and relaxing time out with babe. Managed to coax him out of watching 'The Fog', coz I get really jittery from horror flicks. Watched 'Jarhead' instead, which was interestingly nice, but not fantastic as I hoped. Kinda RA too.

Haven't hung out with babe for quite awhile, so it was nice to meet up and slack. Pretty cool dude who doesn't seem to have things going for him well--in the relationship path. Hopefully things get better. It's pretty sad to see him so down and out, coz although he's still fun to slack with, I can't help but feel sorry for him. At least he tried, too bad it didn't work out.

Received a msg from a fren: '...You're a great gal to have as a girlfriend... Too bad i'm attached...'

Thank goodness he's attached, coz I ain't got the time to devote to relationships now. As yet, friendships still take precedence, and of coz, family at the top. Family includes my dad (whom i'm still trying hard to be respectful and polite to), my mom, jeremy, janet (my far-away sister!) and my future bro-in-law, Terrence. Yeah, terrence, thanks for the constant viewership of my blog! greatly appreciated man. ( :

Anyway, my basic theory test's tmr, and i've barely scratched the surface for my studying. Shall chiong off now and bury my face in it. As if. hahaha... But still, gotta sign off now.

Adios!

At first, I was going to share about the effects of viral infection on my brain.. about how I can feel that my memory's not so good. About me losing money, being more careless than normal..

But.

I just have to share my thoughts and small agonies. Like communication with my dad. Since young, I've feared my dad, scorned him for his method of education, rebelled in small ways, talked back to him in sarcastic tones. In fact, it still persist even now.

I'm trying to stop all that, I really want to obey and honour my parents. But.. it's just so difficult talking to my dad. At our best, my dad and I are more like buddy-style, I'll joke with him, and he'll probably put me down in a teasing manner. I'm fine with it, because at least I can feel the love from him. At our worst... to me, the worst is when I try to reason with my dad, I eliminate all saracasm, I speak in a gentle manner and all fails. He just gets angry, orders me to stop and leave and he starts banging things around and finally stops whatever he's doing, complaining about me.

How now? What do I do? I'm trying to just explain something. Point out a small error on his part, improving communication. And it's just so difficult because even the nicest method fails. How do I communicate with my dad? Must he be winning all the time? No person can.

Because although he wins and saves his pride by ordering me off and saying the last word, but he's broken a little piece of connection between us. And I never want that. I never do. Much as I try, I'm really at my wits end. The conversation topic is not serious, not major at all, but look at the catastrophe. *sighs and lays back*

What can I do. What can I do.